Conversations and Rejection

It has indeed been a long time since I have written a word here. It is the first day of 2008 and a truly significant date to give a shot at blogging again.

Anyway, I spent January 1 2008, 1215 hours, in a TRANS cab.

And in the cab there was a private conversation going on.
The content of the private conversation involved me but I was supposedly not privy to that conversation - I was reminded of that when I alerted my existence.
So I continued to remained silent, pretending I was transparent.
Actually I need not pretend, I was - because the conversation was privy to only 2 parties.

Sort of a slippery slope fallacy here according to Philiosophy 101 but that was my observation.

I had mixed feelings - It is good to know that while I was not treated a stranger because the parties chose to hold that conversation in front of me, at the same time it is not very polite to converse about someone while not regarding the person's existence.

No, it is really not.
And no, this is not the first time.

I was in the company of seniors so I remained quiet after being counter-reminded that the conversation did not involved me.
So I sat through the entire journey - quiet but painful.

The subject at hand was one that I was concerned about, but needless to say less so as compared to the people involved.
I had said "no" to the request, with much pain.
As much as it must have pained the requestor to ask, it was painful for the responder to reject.
I have always been taught that saying "no" is the most difficult thing to say, but I did anyway.
Frankly it was easier to say yes - that would make so many people happier.
But it would made me a less than happy person because I have to deliver that promise.
And I know I cannot deliver - and as an Aries that is painful to the max.
It pains me to say so, but I really can't with marriage plans, business trips and housework all packed during weekends.

I tried to explore very hard for options, like talking to all parties not just one.
I did not insist to talk to a particular party, to clarify that fact - I was trying to explore all doors and options.
If these are deemed not needful, then we shall go with the chosen option.
I will respect that.


一世人做姐妹，难道我不知道你当时和未来的难处。
我只是要说我要说的话。
毕竟，我说话的空间并不大——这是最好的平台了。